Hi My name is Steven. Im 34 and from England. 4 months ago I hit absolute rock bottom. I hated pretty much everything, everything stressed me out, I didnt want to be around anyone including my friends and my family.... even my incredible little 7 year old son. This is how bad depression can effect a person.... it saddens me to think back how I was... what kind of person I had become. Im here now 4 months later in the strongest mentally stable state I could of ever imagined I could be in and I want to share my experiences purely in the hope I can help somebody else. Depression for me crept in slow, slow enough I didnt notice what it was until it was too late. I thought it was down to stress at work, bills, constantly working away from home... I thought my depressed state was just ME, the person I had grown up to be. I had accepted I was a miserable man and just plodded on through my horrible life. Sex drive completely vanished which in turn gave added stress with the Girlfriend. When I returned home from working away for the week my family found themselves tiptoeing around me in the hope they wouldn't send me into a rage. It wouldn't take much to piss me off and looking back now im ashamed how I acted angrily over nothing. I ended up with a major bad head, shoulder and neck ache one day at work which was bad enough for me just pack up my tools and drive 200 mile home. I had mentally lost it by this time and me and my girlfriend decided it was time to seek help before this illness finished us off. I saw the doctor and he was wanting to put me straight on a course of anti depressants... I said no. Before I went to see him I had researched that all my symtoms were related to low testosterone levels. The UK isnt upto speed on low testosterone in men and all the info I found was from the USA where its quite a large and advanced treatment. I asked the doc to test my blood and check for low testosterone, I was certain this was my problem, I knew if it was I could answer the question to why I had been so deppressed, so miserable for such a long time. Looking back now I would honestly say I had been ill for 10 years. Like I said before, depression creeps in slow and with me I didn't realise it was taking over me. The day my doctor told me I had low testosterone will never be forgotten.... it was the day I got my life back. I started my Testosterone replacement therapy (TRT) which for me was a testosterone gel you apply daily. I started to feel better slowly and now 3 months later I feel cured. My energy, happiness, strength physically and mentally has returned. Its been so long I've felt this amazing I feel like I've had a brain and body transplant from an 18 year old. How many people are wrongly diagnosed who have low T though? Doctors seem to treat depression by using the anti depression pill route in the UK. It seems from alot of other mens experiences I've read that doctors here are not trained up adequately to spot and treat low T here which if true is a very worring thing. The main symptoms of low T are: * Depression * Anxiety * Brain fog, cloudy mental feeling * Stress * Irrational thinking and acts * low sex drive, no sex drive * low energy levels. * confusion * Muscle loss There is a great deal of info on web on Low T for those who want to read a more detailed summary and if you have just a slight feeling you may be sufffering from it I urge you to have a blood test and rule it out. It could change your life. In a nutshell your testerone levels control your hormone levels and thats why you end up such a wreck. I thought I couldnt be repaired but unknown to me I could be and have been. Im so greatful and looking forward to taking life head on with anything it can throw at me. I'd like to hear anyone else's low T experiences and if I can help I shall try my best. Cheers.