on the 18th of february 2014, my mom passed away after 6 month battle with a gastrointestinal lymphoma, the doctors started her on chemotherapy which seemed to improve her symptoms and she stopped vomiting, she started eating better only to then develop massive aversion to almost all food, she became very anorexic, she couldn't stand or walk almost anymore, she couldn't really see, she couldn't hear and during the last couple of days she also suffered random memory loss. turned out the diagnosis was completely wrong from the start , it was actually a sneaky pancreatic lymphoma, she went into a coma, rushed to the intensive care where doctors played heroes trying to save her but she just died 4 hours later right there, she was 67 years old and i was there with her through it all never left her alone, i'm not sure what's worse, to watch her slip away slowly or her actual death. i doubt there's anything more painful in life than this except maybe the loss of a son, i'm sure this goes for everyone not just and i wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. i'll be strong and hang in there and i do apologise if i'm posting this as i got no one to talk to, i used to live with my mom and she used to fill my life but now i'm completely alone. one thing i do want to say, cherish every second with your own mom, one day she'll be gone and you'll wish she was there to tell her things you never said, you can change a thousand wives and have lots of kids through a lifetime, but your mom is unique and cannot be replaced with anybody else, she's your diamond, love her above everything else. r.i.p mom.