As I struggle to remember what was the trigger. In reality, they were many. First one, one was the moment when I started having anxiety attacks, something that never happened before. Second, I visited somebody in hospital. The guy was a top executive, someone which you address with utmost respect. He had a terminal disease. He faced his demise with dignity and acceptance. He simply said: Death comes for us all, it just doesn't matter who you are and what you did. In the end, you are facing the simple truth of your choices, and the crushing desire to go back in time and take another path. But you just can't. We only live once. Make that everyday counts, forgive, forget, love and do your best. Don't sell yourself, live in peace with yourself. Got out with my eyes in tears, never happened in my adult life just to tear up. The crushing truth overwhelmed me. Just left me with a void in my mind for days. Third, my health worsened and started to feel ill only thinking I'm going to work. So much for making a turn in my life. Hope it's for the best. Thank you all for your kind words, it means a lot for me. Cheers!